far from the eyes, close to the heart

Hello my loyal readers..
Today at 03.49 AM, but I still cannot sleep
I've been looking at old photographs, then finally I found a picture of one of my best friends
Suddenly I miss her, I'll tell you a little about her okay..
I have a friend, or can be regarded as a good friend
She is very nice and always helping me
She is funny, beautiful and not arrogant, and she is also saving her money (menabung) haha
I'm glad to have a friend like her
She's really understands my situation
She was always there for me although I'm in a trouble
But everyone has their own deficiencies, including me and my friend, we're just an ordinary people
My friend was very sensitive and easily to be offended
We must be very careful when we talk with her, if we don't, she might be offended
I feel sad when we are hostile, but sometimes she often make me mad, I always try to be more patient with her although sometimes it's quite difficult
Now we're not as close as before
Because there are some things that made me decide to stay away from her, slowly
yes sometimes I have social envy when I saw her more closely with other friends than with me
But I don't wanna selfish, she is free to choose whoever that will be her friend
Even if she didn't choose me

Okay, maybe we're not as close as before, but you'll always in my heart
even if you do not consider me as your friend anymore , but for me you're still my best friend forever
Hoaaam I feel so sleepy, good morning hehe BYE zzzz